I can't believe I'm finally here - a
dream truly is a wish your heart makes. today, I ran around the commons,
sweating my soul off with the biggest smile on my face!! I was very nervous to
embark on this adventure. I even found myself tearing up when departing from my
mother. I spent the entire plane ride in disbelief that my moment had finally
come. my nerves were settled when I found a dime in the jo’burg airport. in
that moment, I knew everything would be more than fine. exploring the house, I
realized that paradise will only last three and a half short months. on
Friday, I find myself talking a great deal about my mom after facetiming with
her. however, I began to live in the moment very soon after. yesterday, a text
from a friend was questioning the most recent gossip on social media. I was
proud to explain my absence on social media and my lack of interest in
everyone's every detail of their lives. i cannot even begin to describe how
refreshing it is to distance myself from such irrelevant information. yesterday
at lunch, I realized I didn't have a single worry in the world. for once, my
mind was free. my mind was without the thousands of thoughts that drive me
crazy. I have never felt so free. last night, I wore a pair of my new elephant
pants and truly felt zen. when I was packing for this trip, I kept praying I
would find zen and clarity. my brain needs time to recover from last semester.
I can already feel my head becoming more clear, the fog clearing up. every
night, I find myself completely exhausted. here's to hoping I finally sleep
through the night so I can conquer tomorrow!!
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